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chests and papers.
2002-10-28 ::: 10:29 a.m.
9:00-9:45: complete and total lack of concentration. pain takes first priority. my eyes well up with tears. a single drop escapes my eye and traverses down the canal between my nose and my cheek.my rough draft due today is complete shit, so i refuse to let anyone critique it. teacher asks to see me after class about last paper she can see the pain on my face and she wants to give me full credit, but is asking a dr.'s note. i can provide that. i may just see him today.... lord knows i need new medication. 9:50: exiting building, run into teacher for next class, she smiles, says hello. i stop. and mumble/whisper (i really don't feel like raising my voice because my chest hurts) "i'm not going to be in class today" she has a look of total understanding and compassion touches my arm and nods, then continues on her way, and i on mine 10:10: arrive home. i look in mirror later, i'm pale, like a ghost. not happy) decide not going to work today. take 750 mg of vicodin and skip my own medication for the morning. it does nothing for me. 10:27: now here i sit, waiting for the pill to kick in so i can sit back and relax, feel no pain. relief, please come quickly...
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