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been thinking...
2002-09-27 ::: 12:15 a.m.
I'm entering into new experiences these days. It's kind of frightening to be quite honest. I've entered a relationship with the most amazing girl and it looks like the band is gonna have it's first gig in a week... i'm really quite nervous of that one. It's not like i'm not insecure enough about just me, let alone singing in front of people, even if most of them will be people that i know..... come on!And relationships...... whew. this is a whole new game for me. It's amazing. I was thinking about it a while ago and concluded that I don't like to refer to Via as my girlfriend because that term feels so callous and juvenile, and i see her as something above just a casual "girlfriend." I don't know how to describe it, the way i feel. and it hurts that she's sick right now. it really does. I really missed her tonight, but i did get my homework done.... so at least something good came of all this.... But this weekend.... a complete mess. It's times like these when I wish I had a quaint little cave marke out in some Montana forested mountain region that i could just transfer with the push of a button and relax through this stressful time. i'm so fucking stressed with the shit i'm gonna have to deal with this weekend. fuck times like this. fuck them to kingdom come.
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